‘I had no idea what was normal in a father-daughter relationship. We held each other and I felt safe’.
A
woman who was attracted to her father has revealed how they had oral
s ex after she discovered he also had incestuous feelings for her.
She
relates how she discovered her biological father ‘wanted to have s ex
with me from the first moment he laid eyes on me’ after they met for the
first time when she was 19.
Natasha felt full of ‘self hate and disgust’ after acting on s exual feelings she had for her father (file photo)
Eventually
they succumbed to their feelings as Natasha recalls: ‘We had oral s ex a
few times, almost always preceded by my descending into a whirlwind of
self-hate and disgust and dry heaving over the toilet in the bathroom
attached to his room.’
The s exual
encounters came after Natasha had established contact with her her
father two years before when she was 19. He lived in Jamaica and she had
been to visit him there a few times and spoke with him on the phone
between visits.
Natasha’s mother
had a casual relationship with her father when she was also 19 but he
made a ‘quick exit’ when she became pregnant – so Natasha had not known,
or had any contact with him, when she was growing up.
I had no idea what was normal in a father-daughter relationship. We held each other and I felt safe
She
explains how she tracked him down as a teenager and arranged to meet
him at a time when she was ‘lonely and angry at my mother’.
Describing meeting her father for the first time, she said he ‘dazzled her’, treating her to expensive meals.
She then reveals how they would keep in touch by phone between visits and had lots in common.
‘When
I first met him in person I noticed that we even had the same posture,
the same way of carrying ourselves in the world. I was intoxicated by
our likeness, which I never shared with my mother, or with any siblings
(I am an only child),’ she explains.
She
writes how she then started to be sexually attracted to him – and even
started sleeping in his bed. She writes: ‘As well as shocked and
horrified to realise it – I spoke of it to no one, least of all him. I
hoped I would go home and the feeling would go away. But it didn’t.
Instead, it grew.’
Incest
can occur when relatives meet as adults because ‘people tend to select
mates that are like themselves physically and mentally’ (file photo)
It
was during her final visit to see him in 2009 when she was 21 that she
‘discovered our s exual attraction to be mutual’ and her father admitted
to her that he had wanted to have sex with her ‘from the first moment I
saw you.’
I was not only a victim of my father’s two-year seduction; I also felt a victim of my own sexual feelings
Natasha
writes: ‘I imagine that, unless you have experienced genetic sexual
attraction yourself, this is going to sound entirely unbelievable. But
trust me: it is as real and intense as anything. The sexual feelings I
had for my father felt like a dark spell that had been cast over me.
‘I
was not only a victim of my father’s two-year seduction; I also felt a
victim of my own s exual feelings. I felt ashamed of myself, and I had no
one to talk to about it. I wasn’t equipped to understand or handle my
feelings.’
After having oral s ex on
a number of occasions, Natasha said she then shut herself in a bedroom
away from her father on her final night in Jamaica and he drove her to
the airport the next day in silence.
She hasn’t returned to see him and six years on, she’s still trying to make sense of what happened between them.
She has had therapy and is writing an ‘autofictional’ novel about her experience.
She learnt that genetic sexual attraction can often occur between relatives who did not know one another when growing up.
This has led her to believe ‘genetic sexual attraction is normal, and very real.’
But thanks to her therapy, she has accepted it wasn’t her fault and is experiencing less self-loathing over what happened.
Leading
behavioural hypnotherapist and regressionist Nicolas Aujula says he has
treated numerous people after they have had incestuous relationships,
as he has sourced case studies to appear in his ‘Taboo Hunters’
documentary.
He said: ‘The most
common form of incest is between siblings which more readily occurs when
the older child is a boy who forces younger sibling into sexual contact
usually during puberty. It rarely occurs if girls are older than male
sibling.
‘Father/step-father and
daughter incest ranks second on list. When incest involves minors its
clearly an act of abuse fuelled by power-driven attitudes and perverse
behaviour picked up in childhood.
‘There
can also be an enjoyment on the abusers part of getting their own back
from past experiences of being belittled or wronged.’
He
said that genetic sexual attraction can occur in 50 per cent of cases
when relatives meet for the first time as adults because: ‘There is
usually a strong emotional attraction that gets turned into s exual
feelings, though not all genetic s exual attraction feelings turn into
se xual acts.
‘One explanation is people tend to select mates that are like themselves physically and mentally; known as assortative mating.’
He
added that when he has hypnotised those who have had an incestuous
relationship, they have revealed ‘on a deep subconscious level,
underlying feelings of childhood rejection and a need to seek familial
approval fueled this act.’
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